Saturday, June 26, 2010

More whining... I apologize.

Sweet serenity. I have tomorrow off. This is a blessing and a curse. I have no money, and I have to do my laundry... spend my last $32 in food stamps and then I will veg out on the couch, knit and watch some stupid tv. Cable and internet is a luxury I cannot afford, however it is the only bill that is not yet overdue! I have been dilligent about calling to complain about ever little blip on the screen or every time my dvr reboots... so far I have had $32 knocked off the bill. Hey, every little bit helps, right?

I hate just sitting around whining about how broke I am, but its just hard since Pat's unemployment stopped... whenever the federal government decides to pass some bill, maybe then we can get along for a few more months. He is talking about traveling for work, maybe as far as Maryland. I am okay with the distance, but I dont know how I could keep my job and the baby in daycare if I have no transportation. Plus other annoyances, like reporting for my probation, community service hours, court dates for my upcoming custody case, buying groceries, and doctors appointments. There is a bus system here, but it makes everything a million times harder when you have to catch a bus 2 hours ahead of time in the hot sun. Plus after work, there is no way I could make it to the daycare before closing time everyday. I would have to hire a sitter to pick him up for me. The ends just dont justify the means. There are no jobs here for Pat --LOL-- or me for that matter.

The job is going well though. I am not even paid minimum wage hourly, but my commission pay is nice. The job is fairly easy, no heavy lifting or craziness. I can handle it pregnant with no problem! I am not showing yet at all, but I do notice my belly rounding out a bit. I should post a picture. I will soon I promise.

The overwhelming support from my blog readers has been so wonderful! I love you all. I dont have many friends, so even if we have never met it is nice to know I do have many folks out there who care. Whether we are family, friends in real life, friends from other internet forums or if you just found me randomly and have kept reading about my chaotic life, I appreciate hearing from you all! I have only received one letter that seemed like it might be Josh or Josh's mother trying to find out the new blog address, I am pretty careful though and I continued conversation without sending the new blog address... this "girl" never wrote me back even though she says she is a knitter and loves to see my projects and pictures of my boy. Now, it isnt that I dont believe knitters would love to see project and kiddie pictures, but this particular letter just seemed fishy. It had no mention of current crazy issues, where the rest of you had all mentioned something like, "I hope you are okay", "I wondered about you" or "I'm thinking of you"...
So yeah, I may have lost a reader, but chances are it was a letter from the enemy camp.

I'm trying to sell my projects online, I have only made $40 though. So far. I took a huge loss on that particular project though. I applied for emergency TANF funds, but chances are slim that I will get them. I called my caseworker from DCF and asked about help for rent and the power bill. He then had me fax a bunch of info, but later found out they closed my case already... so I may have to open yet another one. I dont want too, but it may be a way for me to get my name on the list for Section 8 housing. Right now there is a 2 year waiting list JUST TO APPLY. If you have an open case though you can get bumped up the list sometimes I am told. Its worth a shot. Might make the landlord happy.